Ye Olde Diet

Well I have to apologize for not blogging. It feels wrong to start a blog and then go totally AWOL on everyone before they even get a real chance at knowing me. Let me explain that last post (of me being an idiot).
My boyfriend irritated the crap out of me because I found out he was being a lazy bum instead of getting out of bed to look for a job. I almost broke up with him (again), but he promised to turn things around. I said I would give him one last chance, and so far it seems like things are getting better.

In other news, my health has been on a fast decline (which is the main reason for me not blogging). Most mornings, and sometimes nights, I wake up gagging/nauseous/hiccuping/burping/and being dizzy. Sounds like fun right? The docs can't figure it out, and no I am not pregnant (unless I am the next Virgin Mary). The boyfriend and I fool around, but I have a terrible fear of procreating this young so sex is a no no. I had a barium enema (loads of fun) and that turned out negative. So now I am having a colonoscopy and my stomach scoped. They also put me on more laxatives (just more side effects really) and other drugs. Most of my diet is pills...

Speaking of diets, my mom has decided to start one. I'm glad because I want her to be healthy, and now I'm really glad because we have a whole bunch of low calorie T.V. dinners in the house! The doctor's scale said 120.2, but with my boots, sweater, jeans, and breakfast I am going to shave off a couple so it's 118.2 pounds. Does this sound reasonable? Normally I weigh myself in the morning first thing naked, but the scale was taken away long ago. Well I guess there's one good thing about the doctors. So I want to eat around 1400-1500 cals a day. Enough to lose some weight, but enough to keep me healthy and my mom happy. Ye Olde Diet. I am in no hurry, but I'm sick of stuffing my face.

This leads to today's horror: My doctor called in an appetite stimulator/ anti depressant  It's called Pamelor (do any of you take/have taken this?) I don't know why they want me to eat more. They say my depression is from being ill and missing school. I agree, but getting fat won't solve this problem.

I'm still dieting. Challenge accepted.

Thanks for caring! I promise to post more

xoxo